Father-To-Be
Kiara woke me up Sunday morning to tell me that she had some news. I don’t wake up quickly, so I was still groggy. Even in my groggy state, my eyes immediately focused on the home pregnancy test that she had in her hand. I knew that she had taken a few here and there over the years, and she never mentioned any of them to me. I knew that the only reason she would be telling me about this one is because it turned out positive!
It was the third one that she had taken, and they had all come out positive. We haven’t gotten to a doctor yet to confirm it, but I just couldn’t sit on this news until next Monday when Kiara has the first doctor’s appointment. I hope I’m not jumping the gun with this announcement.
After Kiara woke me up Sunday, I had to run some errands in town. While I was in town, Kiara asked me to pick up Your Pregnancy Week by Week, and I happened to spot Your Pregnancy for the Father-to-Be while in the baby section, and I picked it up. When I picked up the book and looked at it, that’s when it hit me: I’m going to be a dad. I can’t say that I totally lost it while standing there in Barnes and Noble, but I did start to cry. Not tears of anger, fear, or sadness, but tears of pure joy.
This is something that I’ve been wanting for several years now. Deep down, I’ve always wanted to be a dad, but there were a good number of years that I could barely take care of myself, let alone a child. In the past five years or so, my life has been stable enough that I thought that starting a family would be a good thing to do. We didn’t plan for a child, but that does not mean that the upcoming baby is not wanted. He/She is very wanted, very desired, and will be very loved.
The next nine months will be a crash course on the next stage of my life, but I’m looking forward to it. The father-to-be book is about 250 pages long, and just yesterday I managed to get to about page 100. I’m going to work on it the rest of the week, and I’m going to try to finish it up by the end of the week. What comes after that will be a great mystery, but I’m going to try to take this a week (a day??) at a time to see what life brings me.
