Fear
I’ve posted in the past that I do my best to approach life without fear. For some reason, Kiara thinks that I need to revisit this topic to talk about things that I fear. No one can live life without fear, but how you approach it and deal with it determines how you live life.
Here’s a list of things that I fear:
1) House fire while I’m not home… If I’m home, I’m fairly certain that I’ll be able to stop it before it gets out of hand. From past experiences, I handle crisis situations quite well, so I think I could get the fire put out with one (or more) of our various fire extinguishers that we have stashed around the house. If I’m not home, then I’ll lose everything that I’ve worked so many years to collect. I’d also lose my precious pets, and that would be the hardest part of it all. I can replace the books and computers, but the pets are unique.
2) Losing Kiara to another man… I’m not the greatest husband. I’m not the best looking guy out there. I somehow manage to constantly piss Kiara off even when not trying. I sometimes dream (nightmare?) that Kiara has found someone else to replace me, and that I’m out of the house and home that I love.
3) Losing my mother… I know that she won’t live forever, but she’s an important part of my life. I’m not sure how I would handle her loss. She’s in good health, so if I lose her anytime soon, it will be some horrible accident. If she lives another 30 years, and passes away in her sleep, I think I could handle that fairly well. However, losing her to something tragic would crush me deeply.
4) Alienating my friends… In the past, my friends have stood by me through all of my issues. I’m much more stable these days thanks to maturity and medication, so I don’t think this will be an issue these days. I’m really surprised that some people have stood by me in the past. Maybe that’s why I value my friends so highly. They’ve been there for me through the good, the bad, and the really ugly.
Hrmm… Looks like most of my fears are based around losing what I have in my life. I guess that means that I’m pretty happy with my life as it stands. It’s good to be content.
